情绪冲击很大.

*3/31/09 at 1:26 PM*

昨天早上特地和家人先去确认了面试地点，Polytechnic Kota Bharu
嗯，从我住的地方去大概要半个小时，在道路畅通的情况下
那间 polytechnic 的附近有间中学。而且明天还要先载弟弟去上学。所以明天早上我必须在七点之前启程，以防因为遇上塞车而迟到。Better safe than sorry

这几天上网都到一些论坛去看关于 JPA 面试的东西
我不抱着一定要得到奖学金的心态（也不觉得我有那个机会），只希望自己能够够镇定。这样我才不至于出糗或犯下任何 stupid mistakes。再者，这是我第一次参加面试，这将会是个宝贵的经验

但是无可否认地，
我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张我很紧张


这几天我也尽量抑制自己不要紧张，可是明天就要面试了，我想这样控制忍着情绪也不太好。因此我须要发泄。

Oh gosh!

CHEW LUN CHU, BE EASY!

ps 我已经伤风咳嗽 for weeks 了，咳嗽药水被我喝了 for bottles，还是没任何好转。救命啊！我可不想在面试的时候一直说 excuse me Q______Q

ಊ

*4/01/09 at 3:45 PM*

I'm back!
哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈………（请容许我狂笑三分钟）
呼呼呼～喘了

嗯，今早七点半还没到我就到了那间 polytechnic
心情是还可以的，紧张还受到控制

穿着昨天刚去 KB 买的 baju kurung，一上楼梯就踩到裙脚，所以我干脆把裙拉得高高，以免跌个狗吃屎
签了名报到后，我就和其他人坐在走廊的椅子等
认识了中华中学可爱的 Xiao Wei 和 Kuei Ping （不懂她们的华文名字如何写 XP）。很巧的，我们都是 panel 2。更巧的是，Kuei Ping 和我一样都申请法律系 ^^
原以为我和 Kuei Ping 会同一组，因为听说他们会根据我们所申请的科系来分成五人一组进行面试
结果她被分去了别组，而且还是第一组进去面试的
她出来后，很庆幸听到她说没被问到 law-related 问题
接着，Xiao Wei 是第二组进去面试的
每一组的面试时间大概要一个小时，所以两组过了以后，我已经在那坐了至少两个小时 >_______<
当然，在干等的时候我都有跟好几个巫裔女生说到话。被我问到的都说申请 social science
而且在 Xiao Wei 那组面试完毕以后，原以为我马上就可以进去面试了，哪知道到了那些 interviewers 的吃饭时间，需要再等到他们休息好再来开始面试 >'''<
所以那段时间里，我和一位 MARA 的朋友－俊宏（我们是那里唯一两个来自 Tanah Merah 的面试者 XD）站在栏杆边聊这聊那的打发时间

在外等待的时候的确变得没那么紧张。可是当我踏进 panel 2 的冷气房并坐在椅子上后，顿时我整个人紧绷了起来，要是没控制我全身还有些微微发抖 V____V
*换 channel* I think that my interviewers are all quite nice. At least they didn't use m16 to shoot us. Just one of us was being shot by a 'rubber band' instead. >____<
In my group, I was the ONLY Chinese and the ONLY female. I was quite nervous at first when we entered the room.
After a short briefing from the president of the interviewers, we started our self-introduction session. And then followed by the group discussion session. Our group got two questions.
The first was something like Malaysia wants to be the excellent center of education so the students are encouraged to take their undergraduate studies locally and postgraduate studies overseas and how we feel (about that). And in this very first question also, I got very nervous and even now I still can't remember what I'd said that time. I was the second to speak out my points, and at first I really can't even manage to make a complete sentence. So while halfway speaking out my opinion, I stopped and took a deep breath, and the interviewers laugh at me!*lol*(Was it that funny?) But after that I really relax a bit and wasn't that over-nervous and stressed. (I don't know whether it's their laughter that helped me or the deep breath. But I think it's their laughter more XD) And yet then I still didn't know what I was trying to talk about so I stopped and let others talk first while trying to clear my mind and think again about the question. To my surprise, the other four group members agreed with that statement while only I was the one who disagreed. (I wasn't trying to be the unique one or what, just that I don't think that studying undergraduate locally while postgraduate overseas help much in 'pushing' Malaysia to be the excellent center of education) Then, here comes the "shoot-rubber-band session". After everyone had finished voicing out their opinion on that topic and there was still time left, so the number-five Malay boy who was quite talkative (or 'talkable'? XP) in our group raised his hand to add some more points. That's when and who who was shot by the rubber band by a Chinese interviewer. The reason is obvious and easy - he changed his stand 'accidentally' when adding his points. (Remember that I said that everyone agreed with the statement of the question except me? So yeah, the points that the boy added were rather more to disagree and frankly, quite alike with points I stated out earlier =P) So he 'was forced' to change from agree to disagree. *lol*
After that, the second question came, "after the independence of Malaysia in 1957, what have we achieved in this 52 years?" This one I really didn't know much. And the interviewer said that we can either use Malay or English to answer. The number-five boy started the discussion with Malay. Hearing one by one they talked on Malaysia's big international achievements, I was just trying very hard to think of any other that wasn't same with them (I don't think the interviewers would like to keep listening to the same achievements). Finally, I thought of the social thingies and I was the fourth to speak. *lol* I know it's quite lame, compared to others' points on huge achievements. But I was lucky enough too 'cause the Malay boy sat next to me who was the last one to speak said the almost-same thing as mine. *lol*
Lastly the interviewers asked us if there's any question, almost everyone had one, except for a boy sitting in the middle. Before leaving the room, we shook hands with the interviewers and thanked them as well.
Overall, I think it was quite relaxing and yet it was ME who made ME felt nervous and stressful in the room XD. I don't satisfied with my performance but it was indeed a good experience since it's my first time attending interview.




*at 6:40PM*

ps1 我突然换 channel 不是因为要 show off 我的英语（况且我英语也没几好），而是我突然没心情继续写下去，所以就干脆 copy & paste & modify 我在刚到家时 post 在一个论坛上的分享文章
ps2 我从在下午面试完的慧雯收到了一个消息。某某的家人有些事情，而我到了现在才知道。虽然很不愿承认，但我心情的确受到了影响。为什么总要收在心里？或许我并不了解某某
ps3 那个今天精心愚弄我的人，我不会那么坏的，要 blog 衰你。但要是那些你告诉我的是真的，我会替你感到高兴的，真的。虽然你觉得那圈子很黑暗
ps4 我明天又要去槟城了。一起庆祝外公外婆的大寿。还有，到红土坎拜公公婆婆以及大伯。感觉上，对比很强烈